The past few weeks has to be most engaging all year. Though I enjoyed it, my body is currently dealing with the aftermath. My nape is aching bad. I am happy that I got to create something. The bliss when I saw my client's reaction to it was beautiful. I kept on smiling.
“You've done well, Seun.”
PS: I wrote this last week, this week was a mess, though productive. Just wasn't as productive as I'd projected.
After everything, I was dealt a mental and emotional blow. I felt I deserved more than I got. People really undermine process. It's bad. After spending tiring hours cutting and sewing, this is all I get? I got over it sha. It wasn't something I could control, there were also other factors attached. Still doesn't invalidate what I felt. Okay! I'm proud of myself atm. When you actually put yourself up to something diligently, you're bound to get results. It's natural.
Before now, I'd been romantisizing my being lazy. And I think a lot of people do this. We yap about how we laze around when we've got responsibilities, and make it look good and funny. Truth is, it's not funny. If it used to be, it's not anymore. We say things like, “do what is convenient for you.” We use our mental and emotional wellbeing as excuses to be lazy. We’ll rot if we linger for too long in our comfort zone. And what’s dangerous is that we know the consequences attached to our attitude to responsibility. We don't want to involve ourselves with whatever stresses us, so we'd rather use the time we should have used to study, to binge an entire series in one sitting. I'd bet my bed hates to see me coming, lol.
We've made laziness, procrastination, irresponsibility, look good. We've come to terms with these guys. You know you should cook, but you can't get up your lazy ass because you just don't feel like it. You know very well that NEPA could seize electricity at any time, yet you'd rather sit in bed and aimlessly waste time and mobile data scrolling through IG reels. You've saved a shit ton of relatable videos, but you've failed to save yourself from your deliberate decline.
I typed this earlier today in my notes app, and I'm feeling like Ikorodu Shakespeare, yes, laugh. If you heard me read this out loud, I could steal your heart no cap. I sound so beautiful, cry!
it's arrogant to deliberately waste time, when certainly you know that you can't afford time. we act like we've got time shoved deep inside our bags. it's fascinating and foolish simultaneously. because i know that this road that i'm on is one treaded with thorns and spike at its peak, and yet, without any care in the world, all in the name of ease, i disregard this truth to suit my body, at the cost of my spirit.
For my Christian brethren, the fact that procrastination is a sin should be enough reason to get off our lazy asses and be responsible for ourselves.
We're not kids anymore. I think we need to wake up to this harsh reality. Even though, I still want to remain a kid. Let's all fix up and stop romantisizing laziness.
one of my creations that i'm most proud of this week.
Thank you for reading my letters, I love you so much! 💜💐
please share, engage, restack and all, arigato gozaimasu.
seeing this after getting over procrastination 😌 you think you can shout at me? never😂
Saying it loud and clear. Our generation has euphemised so many ills on the altar of mental and emotional wellbeing. A lot of lies out there. I pity the next gen.